We all have our insecurities and we always tend to think that they are deeper than those of the rest of the people out there. Well, the worst part about it is that we don’t realize about those insecurities until the people around us point them out and then we start seeing the imperfections that we didn’t know existed.
When I was growing up I was really mocked about my face by my fellow mates and it took a toll on my self esteem. These people would say all kinds of hurtful things about my face being flat, me having no forehead or my head being big and having no shape,etc! At first I brushed them off but as I went on I began to listen to the enemy and I started feeling so damn ugly. I started realizing that boys didn’t treat me like the other girls but treated me like one of their own#hommie.
I thought the boys treated me this way was because we were close in our friendship but I found out that I wasn’t pretty enough. This went on in every stage of my life to a point where I wanted to wear caps and hats all the time and I made sure that I put on a hair styles that hid my forehead. I have lived that way all my life and to this point it’s still very sensitive to talk about my face because part of me hated it. I however came to realize recently that my face makes me unique and there can only be one me in this world thus an insecurity to embrace after all.
This year I decided to show my forehead more often and not hide it all the time with hair styles, It’s one of my New years resolutions and it will not be an easy one to fullfill because old habits die…..My facial insecurities have made feel all kinds of bad and hurtful emotions but am willing to embrace myself because God created me this way with a reason. I know am strong enough to handle more of these criticisms, after all I have managed to grace a few magazines and News papers as a model, I guess am not that ugly as they told me when I was growing up.
Stay fashionable, stay stylish and be a fashion style mogul.
Photocredits- Ngash Sage Photography
Skirt- House of Shades
Sunglasses- Adams arcade.
Shoes- House of Shades
Crop top- House of shades